What does it mean?

As I'm sitting here doing schoolwork, and chatting with some good friends, and some new friends, I begin to think about the same thing I have pondered a good amount of time every so often. What does the term "best friend" mean in my life? People have been coming into and leaving my life for as long as I remember, but I have been thinking about how all the people that supposedly cared so much about me, have just completely forgotten that I exist. I guess all this pondering on the topic started last year at one of the local fairs. I was seeing everyone and even wondering when they were going to say hi, and come give me a hug and tell me that they missed me. No such luck. It seemed as thought they had all moved on from remembering my perturbed existence. I had fun with the friends that I had stayed close with since I had left that school, but I was still hoping that I would go home, get online and see some messages from some of the people I had run into that night saying, "Oh, I saw you tonight!" or "Why didn't you say hi to me tonight?!" But again, no such luck. Why had I once called these people that had once cared so much about me my best friends. Why couldn't I tell that once I was gone and out of their life I would be eternally forgotten. We all promised to stay in contact, and talk whenever we could, but now I'm not even recognized by the people I once felt so close with. I can walk around that town at a parade on the street for so many hours, and see so many familiar faces that I have so many great memories with, and I just have to walk past them, and flash them a smile, leaving them wondering who I was. People grow up, right? We all make new friends, and we all move on with our lives. But why does it hurt so much to feel that you have been forgotten by people that cried the day you left, and said that we would always hang out and do all this stuff. In the beginning I was at all the parties, going to all the school's events, and now, I'm worried that even the friendships I still have with some amazing people won't last as long as we would have liked. Some of us have remained close, but mostly by a thread. I miss youg uys, and the time I spent with you was some of the best times of my life. I won't ever forget it. I am so thankful for all the friends I do get to spend time with, and who actually still take the time to ask me what is wrong when I'm having a bad day. Or take the time to call me just to see how I am doing. There are some people that I have spent a good amount of time with, and began to call you my best friends. Why do I let the term "best friend" come so loosely off of my tongue? After that short amount of time, we pretty much just stopped talking. No more random phone calls, no more spanding time together, making fun of each other for the dumbest reasons, but most of all, no more us. I don't take the term "best friend" so loosely anymore. If you are one of my best friends, you know it. Even though a lot of you that I consider my "bffs" don't get to see me or hang out with me too often, we still ahve the most amazing time ever. And I know that whenever I need someone to talk to you girls will always be here for me. I love our random texting, phone calls, and internet conversations. And the only reason that we have come to know each other was because of the Jonas Brothers. We quickly got to know each other, and figured out that we have way too much in common, but if it weren't for the boys, we would have never met. I really love you girls with all my heart, and I want you to know that I am always going to be here for you, and will always cherish all the time we've spent together. No matter what we're doing; rocking out at a concert, throwing a party, or just goofing off, we always have the most amazing time, just because we are best friends. God pushes and pulls people out of our lives for a reason. Although I am sad to have lost all my previous "best friends", I am glad that He showed me the path to you guys.